What is it i could say to get people to read this, what is it i could say to get a point across.
I don't really know but if you are reading then i hope you understand and feel what i am trying to say.
Life is to short. it's not worth it not to try, it's not worth it to not fall in love, it's not worth it to besome one your not. life ends at a drop of a dime some times by natrual causes some times by other people but what is sad is that some one would end thier own life by thier own hand.
what could motivate some to do so. pain, anger, guilt, hate, envy, even love it's all on how stronge the feeling is thats why i am writing this.
this is a note once written by me with a few modiffications to it but this is how i used to feel befor i found that one thing in my life worth it.

Is our life planned do we natrualy have bad lives or do we make them bad. Well what ever it is i know i have gone through some fucked up shit in my life.
Hate, love, broken heart, my fucked up fate.
vision distorted sanity gone
thoughts impure thoughts so wrong
it's easy to be sad feel the sorrow wish it was as simple as happyness to borrow
opened wounds filled with dirt doubts in your mind as blood squirts
you can feel the pressure it's almost enjoyable pains the only thing thats been loyal
life gone by oh so fast watching every season change never ment to last
born to the grave born a slave to a world of service born a slave to emotions that hurt what did i do to deserve this
once i had it all some one to brake my fall
i love it so much it almost didn't last was it true, or in my mind i needed to find out who
not like myself with them not like my self with out inside did they bring the real me out
hurt the most to almost lose it, it husrt so much i felt like the cause i felt like shit
i need it back i need it so i need my rose marry and to follow where her love grose.
so lost i didn't have a perpous let it pass heart of cold heart of brass
but she changed that
to be forgotten is worse then death but now with her i am ready to take my last breath
if i have nothing i don't care if i never make nothing of my self i'll let my memories pass away like air for that i am lucky that i am the only one she will share with me that one thing and her beauty so fare
a life i couldn't find to live for my self but a life i would live for her
every thing i am and every chioce i make i do it all for that one perosn of this i'm sure
it's not over now and i hope it dosen't end sad i hope not that tragic
but you never know life plays to many tricks
i have felt what i needed to and i am ready knowing all in life
pain, anger, hate, sorrow, joy, my striff
just one more person on the road so many come so many go i don't stand out but if i go cold the memories of what others make of me is what will live on, but the true happyness i found in her makes me feel like a simpleton but i can have it end for me and be fine i just don't ever want to lose her the presious that she is she is mine.